June 2025

There will be no diary posts next month or the month after (July - August 25) as I will not be taking any pictures.

11th

Achieved significant coverage spraying herbicide yesterday; nearly all dock leafs, thistles, and nettles on the paddock are dying or dead.

Infestation of docks arises from here.

and Thisles from here.

This morning is sunny, I read temperatures could rise to 34c, extremely hot for Scottish Borders; even in the summer we have icy breezes.

10th

Downloaded and deleted thirteen thousand photographs from my iCloud account; today I'm at the farmhouse, treating dock leaves with herbicide and coding this website.

After spot spraying Woodburn Farmhouse's 0.4 hectare paddock, I joined Charlie to do a welfare check on our teg flock at grass keep; half of this flock still require shearing.

During the evening, Charlie used the chainsaw and axe to chop logs for our open fire, whilst I prepared cottage pie for our evening meal. Our days are always busy with to do.

9th

CCTV camera caught my neighbour lifting and dropping a heavy pot upon her paving slabs near my flower garden, creating vibrations to damage plants in my garden; forty percent of delicate flowers have fallen from their stems at my house in Ancrum.

ground covered in fallen purple flower petals. These petals are scattered amongst small rocks and soil. Nearby are some green plants, including what appears to be a sage plant and some pink dianthus flowers. The overall impression is one of a garden scene after a bloom.

Paranoid eavesdropping neighbour opposite, and spiteful neighbour that traumatises petals from delicate flowers to the left of me. Maybe we're all unwell, but damaging my garden and installing a special microphone to listen in on my conversations is damaging; but a mere drop in an turbulent ocean of malicious abuses inflicted upon life sanctities.

Dark brown soil, scattered with small grey and brown stones. Many fallen, bright pink petals and small sprigs of a plant with similar pink flowers are strewn across the ground. A few intact pink flowers and some green plants are visible, suggesting the fallen petals are from a nearby plant. The overall impression is one of a garden bed after a light wind or storm.

If Mrs Nelson repeats this action I'll turn my CCTV upon her and upload the footage to this website; I'm tired of tolerating people's malcontent, I no longer wonder why her visiting daughters keep her antics at arms length; because she is destructive and selfish.

8th

Our kitchen garden has overgrown, it's been only a fortnight since we last weeded. Our leeks have gone to flower, and Cinnabar Moth caterpillars have begun devouring our failed cabbages. Potatoes, swede and peas are flourishing; we have onions and broccoli, but parsnips and other vegetables have failed to appear.

Close-up of an unripe bulb of a plant, possibly an onion or garlic, in the foreground. The background is blurred but shows Charlie bent over tending to plants in a field, suggesting a scene of agricultural work. The overall mood is one of quiet labour in a natural setting.
Several small, black and yellow caterpillars nestled within the folds of a large, green cabbage leaf. The leaf shows significant damage from the caterpillars' feeding, with numerous holes and ragged edges. The overall impression is one of a close-up view of a pest infestation on a cabbage plant.

We started weening several lambs that we have left from this years lambing; mother ewes and one tup are being transported to grass keep. It's going to be a noisy evening and night, with lambs crying for their mother ewes, farm life eh.

Charlie in work overalls standing in a grassy field, looking towards a white farmhouse in the background. The setting appears rural, with rolling green hills and scattered sheep visible in the distance. A dark-coloured car and a trailer are parked near the house. The sky is partly cloudy. The overall impression is one of rural tranquillity and possibly a sense of contemplation or observation by Charlie.

We have took the pickup off road, registered as SORN, the truck is taxed till November but won't be until March 26 when we have enough money to make repairs. We purchased this Nissan Almeria as a workhorse, tow our livestock trailer and transport grain, hay and small square bales of straw.

Were trying to clear the paddock of sheep so allowing me to proceed spraying dock leafs with herbicide; however one dorset ewe is refusing to come down.

7th

Today we visited Berwick on Tweed.

Close-up view of a weathered, cylindrical glass lamp fixture containing a glowing green light bulb. The lamp is affixed to a stone structure overlooking a body of water, possibly a river or sea, with a distant shoreline visible under a cloudy sky. The overall mood is somewhat melancholic or atmospheric, due to the muted colours and the slightly ominous weather.

Walked along the Pier to the Lighthouse.

Panoramic view of a lighthouse situated on a concrete pier overlooking a calm body of water. The sky is overcast with a mix of grey and white clouds. A person is visible in the lower right corner, seemingly observing the scene. The lighthouse is predominantly white with a red base, and the pier features a textured concrete wall.

At the begining of the Peir I could smell sewage.

Coastal scene at low tide. The foreground is dominated by exposed mudflats and seaweed, interspersed with patches of sand. In the midground, a calm body of water stretches to the horizon, where a line of buildings or a small town is visible under a cloudy sky. A stone wall or barrier is partially visible in the lower left corner.

However I could not help but appreciate the vast open space.

6th

Officially, I've been resident in Ancrum 1 year 3 days, despite being open and friendly, other than conversation with neighbours, I've not made a friend within this partisan phobic village. Was this world once humane, or is humanity a false memory? What psychopath takes sadistic pleasure from inflicting such a hapless, pre-existent deprivation upon vulnerable people?

Verdant, overgrown path or ditch cutting through a dense thicket of bushes and trees. The path is densely vegetated, suggesting a lack of recent maintenance or use. The background reveals a partly cloudy sky and distant hills under a pale, possibly sunset sky. The overall feel is one of untamed nature.

West and East views from an stone bridge over the Kelso Line.

Overgrown ditch or drainage channel running through a field. Lush green vegetation, including various bushes and tall grasses, fills the channel and the surrounding banks. A few larger trees stand on either side, and in the distant background, a relatively flat field is visible under a partly cloudy sky. A utility pole is visible near the left side of the image. The overall impression is one of rural, relatively undisturbed nature.

Charlie took me for a coddiwomple, I'd been inside the house all day with my anxieties, opening the car roof, having warm air rush over me is bliss after suffering confinement from ailing mental health. I'd walk onto bridges to acquire this comforting feeling, but members of the public rang me in as suicidal, police came, detained me under the mental health act.

Tranquil landscape at twilight. A vast field of tall, swaying barley dominates the foreground, leading the eye towards a gently rolling hill in the middle distance. This hill is topped with a dark line of trees, and possibly a small structure near the center. The sky is a soft blend of blues and purples, with wispy clouds, and a sliver of a moon visible in the upper left corner. The overall mood is serene and peaceful.

Same picture taken with my iPhones wide angle lens.

Vast field of tall, green barley swaying gently in the breeze. Two tire tracks cut through the field, leading towards a slightly elevated area of land in the distance, where a dark line of trees sits against a pale sky. A sliver of a moon is visible in the upper left portion of the picture. The overall mood is peaceful and serene, indicative of late afternoon or early evening. The sky is a mix of blue and soft gray clouds.

I've self censored much writing about my mental health, as stigmatisation further isolates me into seclusion; a pre-existence exploited by a pervasive ostracism, incurring detachment and loneliness. But I have Charlie and Sam, he shares his life even though I have no life to share with him; a wonderful man Charlie is to have befriended this disturbed person I became.

Country road lined with tall trees on either side. The road is relatively empty and the light suggests it is either early morning or late evening. The trees are lush and green, and the overall atmosphere is tranquil and serene. The road leads toward a slightly visible horizon with fields beyond the trees.
Blue Mini Cooper convertible parked on a country road next to Charlie standing in a field. A signpost indicating Farmington is visible in the background. The overall setting appears to be rural, with lush greenery and a partly cloudy sky. The scene is tranquil and evokes a sense of quiet countryside life.

Not many places in this country, when you can go, from valley to valley and feel as though you are in a different world, as ostracism follows to reep inclusion, violation is the aperitif.

Dark, weathered brick wall with a large, faded white painting of an owl on it. The word HOOT is painted in white letters above the owl, suggesting a playful or whimsical design. The overall mood is dark and somewhat mysterious, enhanced by the low light and the aged condition of the wall. The contrast between the dark brick and the white paint draws attention to the owl image. The presence of greenery at the bottom suggests an outdoor location.

Kelso Line at Rutherford, we found a lonely owl, a displaced intermediary creating a passage between dark and light.

Blue Mini Cooper convertible parked on the side of a country road at dusk. The sky is cloudy, and a hedge runs along the roadside. The car's headlights are on, suggesting it's either early evening or late in the day. The overall mood is peaceful and somewhat melancholic, due to the subdued lighting and the quiet rural setting.

Tonight I have a place to go, but for decades, this wasn't so. Returning to Ancrum I cooked Charlie mince and onion, buttered mash tatties, complimented with brocolli and carrots.

5th

The plastic seal on my B12 (Hydroxocobalamin) box has been cut open, have no idea how this has happened as this ampule box has not been administered by a nurse yet.

Leonie's hand opening a box of Hydroxocobalamin 1mg/ml injection vials. The box is white and clearly labelled with the drug's name, concentration, manufacturer (Accord Healthcare Ltd), lot number, and expiry date. The vials themselves are visible inside the packaging. The overall impression is one of medical treatment or preparation for an injection.

At 10:40am I recieved this injection, at 2:45pm still alive from "fear it do it anyway", because unlike detachment paranoia inflicted by social deprivation, pernicious anemia is real.

4th

Strimmed front garden at Woodburn and added 200 image descriptions today.

Charlie had his new work car delivered, a twenty year old Nissan Almeria SE. The delivery driver asked if I knew Jonnie Armstrong, retrospective is weird and cranky.

Dark green Nissan Almeria parked on a gravel drive. The car appears to be in relatively good condition, and the background features a grassy hillside and some trees. The overall impression is a simple, everyday scene of a car parked in a rural setting. There's nothing particularly striking or symbolic about the picture; it's a straightforward depiction of a vehicle in a landscape.

To tax my Mini Cooper and his Nissan Almeria is cheaper than taxing our L200 Warrior!

3rd

Drivers make it a thing to overtake us, when we're leaving a town, or county; so much that infrequently they'll risk ours, their lives and also the life of others. It's as though they are attempting to ill fate us into having an accident. Took the picture below through my wing mirror.

Grey Seat Ateca SUV stopped on a narrow road, partially obscured by another vehicle. A person inside the Seat is hold the palm of their hand against the window. The setting appears to be rural, with lush green foliage and a stone wall visible. The focus is on the Seat and the hand, creating a sense of a brief, possibly fleeting, interaction between the occupants of the two vehicles.

And this picture as we overtook them just before we arrived into Langholm.

Side of a dark-coloured SUV driving along a road. The vehicle is in the foreground, with a view of rolling green hills and a cloudy sky in the background. Power lines stretch across the image above the hills.

Angry car with creepy people, flashing lights and hurling abuse at us. Travelling along the A7 at the Scottish Borders / Dumfriesshire border, they overtook us after we overtook a log lorry, that's when the abuse began and ended the other side of Langholm, as we pulled into a lay-by. Since returning from India, hate directed at my life has been endless.